Yesterday I woke up feeling, off. Like a wet blanket was draped over me. I was low energy, cranky and feeling disheartened about my love life. On a previous post I described my Saturday morning meditation and how my TwinFlame ended up connecting with his deceased mother in the meditation. I am pleased with the fact that I, myself, was not involved in talking to her but was just present and observed their reconnection. I told my Twin I was not going to engage in conversation with her in the 5d. However, she does want too. And I’ll get too that.

But on Saturday evening while talking with him over text we get into it a bit, not surprisingly, about Trust. Now that morning in meditation, his mother reassured him, he could trust me, and then that evening, he fights with me about not being able to trust me. Funny. Mind you, he knows nothing about what I experienced in the meditation. The eclipse was that day as well so I found it interesting, reflecting on the argument the next day, how the energy from the meditation was opposing to his energy that evening. He proceeded to tell me he can’t trust me and we should remain just “friends” and he doesn’t see our relationship progressing past that. I was heartbroken. I cried. And I’m not a crier. Sunday I woke up and meditated. In meditation Archangel Michael came to me and tried to cut the cord that ties me too my Twin. He swung his sword and did cut it, multiple times, just to have it reappear and reconnect me too him. I came out of it feeling confused and foggy. Sad. And that energy carried into yesterday. I woke up, made it through my yoga practice, showered, and got the kids too school. While driving, my energy body started to rise and my third eye started to activate. Random pains in my heart chakra and the chills. Occasional goosebumps and racing of the heart. I can always tell when I’m being energetically connected too, or trying to be reached, by source and/or spirit. My body just, activates, in certain ways. The best way I can try and describe it, is, as a vibration. And the ascension symptoms. I notice my aura, my surrounding energy body shift. I’m very aware and its very apparent to me, now, what’s happening, about to happen or try to happen. So I get to work and the vibrational shifts continue throughout the morning. Something is around me or something is really trying to come through. I’m aware, but ignore it, or try my best to. If I focus on it then its like opening the floodgates to the 5d and allowing the door to open for whatever energy is trying so hard to reach me, and I am at work so, recognition is one thing, allowance and entertaining it is another.

Regardless, it was strong and very persistent. I had to pee, so I made my way out of the office and down the hallway of our building, to the women’s. The long hallway is empty, and I see her in my minds eye, at the end of it. My Twins mother. I hesitate for one step, blink and press on. As these types of images, flashing through my 3rd eye, are fairly common and don’t deter or shock me really anymore. I do, however feel my energy body escalate and my ascension symptoms peak, slightly. The women’s is quiet, empty and a little eerie, to be honest. Dim lights, only three bathroom stalls and two changing stalls, with showers, for the small gym attached through a door in the back. Its strange I know but I always use the first bathroom stall or try too, because someone once told me its the one least used and people avoid it. Made sense to me and I’ve always kept that logic and use the first stall, if its available. But today something told me, the third stall. Never used that one. But I was guided to it. So weird. To be told to go to a certain bathroom stall but….. whatever. Like I said, I’m getting accustomed to the unusual. So, I’m in the third stall and sit down. My heart starts pounding in my ears. My third eye starts to throb, my front teeth go a little numb and waves of goosebumps, or “angelbumps” as I call them, rush over my body. My eyes start darting all crazy, as they do, when the plane of the 3d and the 5d thins, and I become, for a lack of better definition, accessible. To spirit. Energy. Downloads. My “Clair’s” activate.

And I’m sitting there and the linear lines of the stall in one corner, change. Now, THIS type of clairvoyancy I’ve only experienced a few times, where I can SEE the actual energy that is not visible to the naked eye. The last time, it was the morning after my Twins mother had died. She appeared in this way, as of energy, in my kitchen before she was there, actually standing by my refrigerator. The aura of a spirit. It looks like the one corner of the stall starts to, almost appear to take on a slight, liquid like, state. It’s both a little frightening but also exciting, experiencing this when it’s happened. I know it’s her. I’m told, clairaudiently that it’s her. And then Maura, one of my main guides, tell me, “She wants to talk to you.” I said “About what?” Maura says “_ _ _ _ _” (my Twins name) “No, no no” I said. I told my Twin I would NOT talk to his mother in spirit. It’s one thing, for them to use me as a bridge for themselves in MY meditation, but its completely different, me talking to her without him knowing. I feel like that’s,….I don’t know….Dishonest. Crossing Boundaries. It just doesn’t SIT right with me.

I focus on detaching from the connection, blink hard, shake my head, and myself, loose. I go to the sink to wash up and in the mirror, my pupils are dilating in and out in and out and I get pain in my heart chakra. I hear my name, whispered to me clairaudiently, before I make my way out the women’s, down the hall and back to the office. The rest of the day went similar energetically, but knowing, what or more so WHO it was, I didn’t entertain it.

Love & Light, Kelsey